So, it's official. I'm crazy.
& legal now. lmao. *coughs* anywho....
So, I'm getting a job at Subway. I'm super nervous. My first job. Well, not really, my second "first" job. Lol, if that makes any sense. ^^

So, I've got a song here on DA called, "Chains" that got eleven favourites. I figured since a couple of people liked it so much, I'd give a shot to putting a tune to it....so I did just that. It's now posted on myspace. lol.

Don't ask to hear it 'cause it sounds like a dying animal. ^_^' but I tried. lmao.
I really do like to sing & write the music, I just don't really know how to, ya know? It's not easy for me. Though, to some, it might be.

Anywho, I'm IN LOVE with Savage Garden. God, I want to have sex to their music.
lol. Sooo...you didn't need to know that.
*cough, cough* uhm, aside from the job thingy and the song, I'm playing WoW (World of Warcraft) on Private Servers (ps) which is pretty fun. Would be funner if I had more friends playing with meh. oh well.

I got a new microphone & headset. Costed me $35 bucks though. Quality is good, so, it was totally worth it.

I plan on writing some more...I have a couple of poem I haven't posted yet and may do so later on. I just don't think they're very good.

Anyways, how are ya'll???

If you ever get bored you should totally join me in WoW. I'd love that, really. But, I'm sure you all have lives. lmao.

Cheers,
-Slippers

I'm proving to myself that I have the will-power to do something I severly want. I'm proving it by not eating. lol. I haven't eaten since thursday and I AM ABOUT TO DIE!!! lol. It feels that way, anyways. I refuse to take in any calories until Monday night. Yes, yes. Monday night. It seems so far away.
My father was suppose to follow along with me, but i caught him sneaking a grape in the kitchen last night. Dumb mother fucker. Can't believe his ass. lol. Anyways, how is everyone? I'm off restriction for the weekend, obviously.
I gotta work today, though. Which should be fun. If I faint from lack of energy I might scare a few people, but, eh, they'll get over it. lol.

Anyways, I'm completely obsessed with A Perfect Circle. They're flat out amazing ♥.

I have school in three hours. I haven't slept all night. Yet I am completely exhausted. Not only am I dead tired and not able to sleep, but I am also going back on restriction starting today. This means I won't have computer priviledges for quite sometime. So, for those of you i talk to, farewell! I shall return within a week or two!
Anywho, I am absolutely dreading school. I wish so badly my summer was a bit longer. All my teachers i have my sister tells me are shitty. Which, i can't afford to have bad teachers at this point. I'm so behind it's not even funny. Anywho,
I haven't writtten anything decent in what seems ages!!! It's driving me insane. Maybe when I get back I'll have something to throw up here on DA.
Hmmm, I have to say I'm in love with Wheat Thins. THese salty low calorie crackers are freakin' amazing.
Anyways, I guess I should head to bed. Prepare my ass for school in three hours.

So, got a message from her today. After she sent me an "apology" text last night and i didn't reply because i, personally, don't want to hear her horse shit.
She decides to up and tell me that she was still quote, "madly in love" with her ex and never wants to have anything to do with me again AND THEN! sends me some lame poem about how happy she is.
Now...i tell you, i am NOT a nice person when you continue to stir drama with me. I hate drama. I hate it. I hate it. It's imature. Well, she continues to send messages on how she hates me and doesn't want me and blah blah blah. So, me ignoring all her shit, i get fed up and send her a nice rude mail and block her off of my Myspace.
It's sad, really. We could've ended this in a civil manner and still been decent with eachother. But she had to go and stir the water. Typical of her, really. I'm bitter about it now. And damn well pissed.
Why can't people just grow the fuck up? I mean damn, 16 years old and acts like a ten year old that lost her sucker.
I can't say i loved her, really. All she ever did was tear me down and redicule me. I'm sick, honestly. I'm so sick of being treated like my existence is just to be used.
Because, i tell you, it is not.

The first day we met i didn't think anything special of you. Didn't think there would ever be such a history we've had together. Or that we'd fall in love.
The first day i met you i didn't realize you'd tear me apart.
Stomp on me till i bled and do it all over again.
The first day i met you you were just a cute choir girl with a bad attitude.
The first day i met you you were what i defined as, "too good to be true."
Has that all changed since we've been through what we have? Never.

Even though you've tore me apart time and time again, and I've been stupid enough to take you back, I can't say I hate you. despise you, I fucking love you.

It's hard to let you go on such bad terms, but what has to be done, has to be done. You never did complete me. Or make me feel better. It was always a hurt hurt relationship unless there was foreplay. I shared myself with you and you tore that away. I shared my heart with you, and you threw it away.

It sucks to be alone and feel so empty. What sucks even more,though, is being with you and feeling nothing.
I hate to say it, but you were right, we just can't make it outta the 3 times we've tried.

You were my girl, my baby girl, You've always had me. You always will.

To the girl who knows your weakest spots and hardest walls to break,
Jenn

-Slippers13