I had a total melt down in 4th block today....
How embarrassing. This whole "trusting your classmates" bullshit is really getting under my skin. I don't even trust my family members let alone a bunch of imature brats. gah.
I think when the teacher said I had to do this whole "human ladder" thing, it was b/c he knew I had problems. 'cause, as soon as I had to go up, i stared ahead and nearly had an anxiety attack.
He tried to calm me, but after getting half-way across the ladder thingy, I grew too close to the edge and fell, my whole body shook and I simply stood and walked off. I felt awful.
It wasn't even that it was humiliating, I've grown use to being embarrassed. It was all these flashbacks of mom and events that took place. I felt weak and sick. A friend of mine tried to comfort me, but within a minute or two she was off subject about herself...which I enjoyed, I didn't like talking about my issues. I'd much rather tone out and nod my head ever so often than actually have to talk about anything.
I dunno, I don't want to be "admitted" into any nut house. But, with how things are going and father is talking...looks like that's what he wants to happen.
Maybe I do need it. Maybe I am crazy...but, aren't we all?
Jesus, I sound ridiculous.
Hey! last day of testing Friday, yesh! ^^ Guess I should head to bed. Need to rumage any bit of strength I might have to get through it. Gah, can't wait till Saturday.
Anywho, yall have a great Friday and awesome opposum weekend, yo!
-Slippers13